I’ve come to the conclusion that we may never fully be in the clear from old ED scripts coming back to nag at us or feelings from moments of despair that suddenly resurrect themselves in the present. Usually these scripts resurface throughout our recovery. These old scripts are sneaky as can be, and if our defenses are down we might easily confuse them for truths about the present. So how can we know if the way we are feeling is a sneaky old script or if it’s actually grounded in reality? That one’s easy! If it makes you feel like crap by calling into question your worth, your lovability, and either of these in relation to your weight, it’s probably a sneaky old script!
So you’ve identified the script is present. Now what? This is the challenging part, but I know you can do it. You need to ride it out. That means acknowledging it for what it is, and then spending some time with it in a compassionate way (I love doing guided meditations and body scans to really sit with it). It can be helpful to keep checking in with the feeling or inner dialogue and remind yourself it will pass. And of course, there’s always good ol’ distraction! When I know I’m being confronted with my sneaky script, I willfully distract myself with a good book or movie. I’ve come to discover that the more I resist the feeling or script from the past, no matter how untrue and unfounded I know it to be, the more intense it seems to get. My experience has shown me that when I allow it to be and at the same time know that it will pass, it actually does—all by itself. Allowing it to be gives you enough space from it so that it doesn’t get the better of you. Remember, these cognitions and feelings may have had power over you at one time, but this time around you are the one in charge.
Some of the best recipes come from cravings. Take, for example, these vegan rice krispie squares. I often lament that rice krispie squares are not vegetarian-friendly, especially when my husband would indulge in large, soft and chewy looking oversized squares at a local coffee shop—you know the ones I mean—and I’d be left staring longingly. When I saw the sign for a vegan bake sale happening the other day I happily packed up my reusable bags to cash in on the vegan version of this treat! We walked into the store only to discover I’d gotten the date wrong! It left me no other choice but to craft these at home—and boy am I glad I did. This recipe is inspired by a marshmallow-free version of Dreena Burton’s (found here) that uses macadamia nut butter in place of marshmallows. I’ve made rice krispie squares using Dandies vegan marshmallows in the past, but found these a bit on the crunchy side so I thought I’d try a blend of marshmallows and macadamia nut butter. Macadamia nut butter has been impossible to find over the last year but I happen to have some raw whole macadamia nuts and I promptly ground them into a butter using my food processor. I think these are the best batch of vegetarian-friendly rice krispie treats I’ve made to date!
Vegan Ooey Gooey Rice Krispie Squares
- 1.5-2 cups of brown rice crisp cereal
- 1 bag of Dandies vegan marshmallows
- 1.5 tsp vanilla extract
- Pinch of salt
- 2/3 cup macadamia nut butter*
- 2 tsp coconut oil
In a medium-sized thick bottomed saucepan, melt the Dandies over low heat until they start to lose their shape, about five minutes. Add the vanilla, salt and macadamia nut butter and stir to combine.* The next part gets a little tricky. If you’re lucky and have a mixer, transfer mixture to mixing bowl and add rice crisps. Mix until well combined. If you don’t have a mixer, stir mixture into a large bowl and add rice crisps. Mix to combine and once cool enough, use your hands to knead the marshmallow mixture into the squares evenly (it takes a bit of effort). Line a small 7×7 pan with parchment and press mixture into the pan. Let sit at room temperature to set or start eating immediately for a gooey treat.
*Note: Dandies don’t breakdown the same way gelatin-based marshmallows do so you’ll really have to work at it (unless you have a mixer).
** Note: making your own macadamia nut butter is easy so don’t be dissuaded! Macadamia nuts are so full of fat that it doesn’t take long for the oils to release and a nice creamy butter to form. I used about 1 cup of whole nuts to make 2/3 cup butter. Add to your food processor and run about 3-4 minutes until smooth.