H’angry Heart (and Sick n’ H’angry Soup)

Are you feeding your soul? It’s so easy to get caught up in the busy and to forget to check in with yourself to see if your heart is feeling fulfilled. We can be in our routines and doing our thing only to realize that we feel exhausted–the trouble then becomes that we feel too tired to do the things that bring us joy. Instead, we settle for brain-sedating activities like watching television or surfing the internet that are possibly accompanied by food or alcohol to further numb us. Everything else feels like too much effort!Read More »

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The Revival (and 7 Layer Tex-Mex Pasta Salad)

A few days ago I got called out by a good friend (thanks Yammykins!) on my MIA blog status: I’d not posted since December 21 –EGAD! The truth is that things have been so intense on all levels of being, I literally fell into survival mode. I was stretched emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. My inspiration and creativity was an afterthought and the longer I neglected that side of me, the harder it seemed to be to find the spark and go deep. I was spread so thin and my plate was so full (as it were). I grappled with identities and questioned my contribution to the blogosphere, feeling at times that I was jack of all trades and master of none. My inner perfectionist (you know the one) cut her all-or-nothing card, and, I didn’t have it in me to prevail. On top of that, the reality of limited time and my hectic schedule meant that I really had to focus and let some things fall by the wayside.

Upon being prompted, I realized it was time to make a return to this channel of expression, showing up as who I am now: a recently engaged, soon-to-be Masters of Counselling Graduate! And the timing couldn’t be better! I’ve slowly been making my way back into the kitchen and my heart, head, and stomach are hungering to make, bake, and create again! So please take me back! I apologize for my absence, but I promise it has all felt like part of a divine recipe. I don’t quite know what’s coming out of the oven, but, despite my four month hiatus, I am showing up now. What better way to mark my re-entry into the blog world than with a tex-mex pasta dish, vegan and gluten-free. Life is good!

Tex Mex

Originally inspired by the famous “Seven Layer Dip” that seems to show up at potluck and parties everywhere, this dish is delicious served hot, or cold as a pasta salad. The recipe here is vegan, but feel free to sub in your dairy originals if that’s your thing.

7 Layer Tex-Mex Pasta Salad

Sauce

  • 1 pack of msg-free taco seasoning
  • 1 can of black beans, rinsed and divided
  • 1 cup vegan sour cream
  • ½ cup of your favourite salsa

Pasta Dish ingredients

  • 2 cups kamut or brown rice fusilli, cooked according to package instructions
  • 1 cup grape tomatoes, sliced in half
  • 1 cup mixed orange and yellow peppers, chopped
  • 2 green onions, sliced
  • ½ cup of Daiya cheddar shredz
  • ¼ cup chopped parsley or cilantro
  • 1 tbsp freshly squeezed lime juice
  • Sea salt to taste (this will depend on how salty your seasoning pack is).

In a high powered blender, blend sauce ingredients together until smooth. Assemble remaining ingredients, letting the pasta cool first before adding if you are going for the cold salad version. Mix in the sauce, sprinkle with a bit more Daiya, and serve!

The hush-hush relapse (and “date for one” dessert)

Are you tip-toeing around with your eating disorder not wanting to wake anyone up? Depending on where you are at in your recovery, you may have already told the people that are close to you that you are struggling with your food. But what happens when we progress down the recovery road and still have struggles despite everyone around us thinking we kicked this thing?closeup

As I have mentioned in past posts, this food thing may always be with you to some degree, in some manifestation—and this isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Over time we learn to listen to what it is actually trying to tell us so we can feed ourselves that which we are really hungry for. The most important thing about relapse is that we keep going, we move on fast. And, we tell someone.

If we’ve been in recovery for a while, it can be humbling and extra hard for our perfectionistic selves to admit to another person that we aren’t perfect, that we don’t have it all together—that we fell and it’s hard right now. Not everyone is going to understand your eating disorder—in fact, it’s likely most people won’t. But that doesn’t mean you have to keep quiet about it. Find a compassionate friend or two that you can let in on what’s going on. It may even turn into a conversation that takes you into what’s behind the food. The important thing is to drop the shame around it and reach out by breaking your silence. That is how we keep on healing.

dates 2

With so much going on in my life right now, sitting down to write a blog post feels like pure shameless self-indulgence! For some people it’s chocolate, for me it’s this (with a little chocolate on the side, perhaps!). You might think this recipe is a bit of a cop-out since it’s so simple (simple has become my diet these days) but I assure you, you will quickly uphold this as your new favourite snack or dessert.

It’s “A Date” Bite!

1 plump mejdool date

1 tsp almond butter

Pinch of sea salt (optional)

4-5 chocolate chips

Spread the date apart with your fingers and remove the pit. Fill the open crevice with almond butter, sprinkle your salt, and line up your chocolate chips. Consume in one or two bites. Done deal!